You Gotta Know When To Hold Them....

Good things this week:

1. Chris is coming home soon!
2. Phone interview with the job at the ACLU in San Francisco went very well. Keeping my fingers crossed for a second interview…
3. Set up an interview at the Pratt Center for Fine Arts in Seattle next week, looks like a great job and it sounds like a fun place to work!
4. My dad and his girlfriend swooped in to save the day this weekend, plus they even gave Kaya a bag of rawhide bones. We’re both very happy. J
5. Had Thai food with my momma at the new restaurant downtown, yay for supporting new local businesses!
6. Just turned in a grant application for $200,000 - one month early. Woohooo!

Bad things this week:

1. Kaya’s skin situation was getting better, but I think it’s started to spread and get worse. She has another vet appointment on Thursday, this time with a new veterinarian.
2. My motivation level at work is close to zero. I’m maintaining and getting the basic work done, but I’m certainly not putting any effort or thought into it.
3. Had a near financial disaster this weekend, but I managed to keep my head on straight, and rather than crying and freaking out I calmly called on my friends and family and they helped me through. (Thanks again Dad!)
4. Self-discipline in terms of nutrition, finances, drinking, and nearly all other activities has hit an all-time low. If it wasn’t for the fact that I have to walk the dog at least twice a day I would have absolutely no discipline or structure in my life.

Well, it’s a mix of good and bad this week. I think number four on the list of bad things just about sums it up: something has happened to my self-discipline lately. This sucks because I have spent myself into a hole, let my car nearly run out of gas, and was forced to ask my dad for help. On the other hand, it doesn’t suck because I had fun spending it. Sometimes creature comforts are all you can count on to get you through the day, and so if I spend a few bucks on candy, I’ll just chalk it up to maintaining my mental health. (Plus it’s not like there wasn’t some medical bills, vet bills, groceries, and other necessary costs also.) I do promise, however, to do everything in my power to not let that happen again.

Thinking Too Much - August 2006

And all of this comes at an interesting time, considering that I am in such a quandary about my current job situation. In fact, this pretty much solves the problem all together. I do not believe that I can continue to live at this wage, so it is confirmed, I will put in my two weeks notice as soon as I get a new job.

Goodbye five thousand dollar educational award. It would have been nice to know you! Hello big paycheck, I cannot wait to meet you!