Trying To Live In The Present Tense

                                              "Abstracted Consciousness" by Roswita Szyszka

Good Things This Week:

1. My dad and his girlfriend make the best blackberry cobbler in the world – this morning I was lucky enough to have a freshly baked batch brought to my doorstep. Hello breakfast!
2. I have a job interview in Seattle on Wednesday at the Pratt Center for Fine Arts. In the perfect world, they will hire me on the spot. Keep your fingers crossed.
3. Kaya’s skin situation is improving quickly. Yay for the new vet!
4. Perfect weather – it’s sunny and clear but not too hot.
5. I got a ton of housework done this weekend, including mopping the floors.
6. I’m doing much better at my goal of being more social, I went out to a bar this weekend with friends, actually danced (on the dance floor, not the bar, teehee!), drank too much, and passed out on a friends couch.
7. Used a gift certificate to get a really cute new shirt at Old Navy.

Bad Things This Week:

1. Chris was unable to come home last week, and I miss him incredibly bad but he is making some awesome progress at his new job. He’s a damn hard worker and he makes me so proud. J
2. This weekend I missed the entry date for the Kitsap County fair, making it official that another year has passed and I have not accomplished this goal. At least I’m getting started on next year’s resolution list early.  
3. Good old procrastination is just about to rear up and bite me on the ass. Raise the Roof event is in one month and one day. Must get crackin!
4. Kaya is possibly showing symptoms of a new and different health problem. I fear that even mentioning it will make it worse. Stay positive, little doggie, stay positive.

Well hot damn, look at that, there is more good than bad this week. I have become mildly obsessed (who, me??) with searching the internet for new jobs and new apartments/houses. In many ways I feel like I have mentally moved on from my current job, and I’m just here going through the motions every day. It’s a conscious struggle to not let myself get consumed by this feeling, and unfortunately I know that I am failing the struggle.

Having made the decision to leave Americorps early (if and when it is possible to do so), I feel much better and more assured of the future. Now if I can just get through waiting for the future to hurry up and arrive.